I did need to work out my frustration, somehow. And I hoped you would understand, but that didn't work.
[ she seems to struggle for a moment-- at least her honesty objective is being triggered some-- before just blurting out, ]
On top of other things, like effects from the drinking game-- Kim Dokja rejected me for some shiny new boy of his and yeah. Maybe I'm a little fucking bitter about it. I think I have a right to be upset, after everything.
[ she works her jaw for a moment, but it's less trying to hold in anger and more trying to work out what else to say. but eventually her shoulders slump a little. ]
I don't really know what to think. Or how to feel. If he's happy, then-- of course I'm happy for him. Any of us would be. Maybe it's the stress getting to me, or the lack of real sleep, or being in new scenarios again, but I just can't help thinking that if anybody, it should have been you.
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Writer: come outside
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and heads out]
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Hey. You good?
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he also looks pretty tired, but has at least cleaned up]
I'm fine.
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she nods towards the pond ]
Walk with me.
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... The other day. I wasn't using you as a punching bag.
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but she has his attention]
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[ she seems to struggle for a moment-- at least her honesty objective is being triggered some-- before just blurting out, ]
On top of other things, like effects from the drinking game-- Kim Dokja rejected me for some shiny new boy of his and yeah. Maybe I'm a little fucking bitter about it. I think I have a right to be upset, after everything.
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not saying anything, though.]
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I don't really know what to think. Or how to feel. If he's happy, then-- of course I'm happy for him. Any of us would be. Maybe it's the stress getting to me, or the lack of real sleep, or being in new scenarios again, but I just can't help thinking that if anybody, it should have been you.
[ a pause. ]
... or us.
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Not me. Do not involve me in this.
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I'm not involving anyone in anything that isn't already there, anyway. I just wanted to explain what happened. That's all.
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... whatever. Just forget it, it doesn't fucking matter.
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Kim Dokja is a pain.
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I'm not looking for comfort.
[ a pause. ]
Not really, anyway. ... It's pathetic, but there's not many people I can talk to in this place.
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I can listen.
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... Yeah.
[ It's a bit awkward, but eventually she does manage to mumble a small "thanks." ]
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I miss them.
[ there's not really any doubt about who "they" are. ]
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